It was almost getting used to them- the ears and tail...It's easier without them though. I once again don't have to worry about slamming my tail in the door.

I wonder if anyone will say anything now that mine are gone?

Ears? I-I have ears and a tail. Maybe I shouldn't have used that cat themed tarot last night...

Doesn't this normally only happen on television or something?

Please tell me I'm not the only one with these....

((Once again prompted by Haruhi's latest little post))

Hitomi had walked with Lelouch to the coffee house that they had passed when she had gotten lost on campus (a day that seemed like one from so long ago). She placed an order for an iced raspberry tea before finding them both a table in a corner of the small shop. She fidgeted slightly in her seat, acting as if she was getting comfortable while really she was hiding the nervousness she had in concern with what Lelouch wanted to talk about.

I'm not exactly sure how it came about, aside from it being my 'price', but I seem to have acquired a job on campus. I'm not sure how Miss Yuuko expects such a thing to help me though- even if things are looking better than they had a few weeks ago... Oh well, part-timing for the new campus counselor shouldn't be too hard right? Aside from her weird demands for alcohol and snacks at odd hours I haven't had much difficulty there.

I suppose it's just an experience to add to those I've already had. At any rate I doubt I'll be bored anytime soon. Yuuko is, at the very least, a most interesting person...

Hitomi was fidgeting nervously in front of a dorm room door. She had been wandering the halls when she was stuck with the urge to visit Euphie. Of course, she had already made her way to her friend's dorm room before she actually considered how obtrusive she might be by randomly showing up like this.

What if Euphie wasn't here? Or was busy?

Hitomi shook her head and raised her hand to knock on the door softly. Really, Euphie was nice- the worst that could happen was that the other girl would end up not being free right now, no reason to be nervous.

I can't...do this anymore. I can't get up everyday and pretend things are fine.

I can't look in the mirror, knowing that I'll see the pain in my own eyes and I won't be able to suppress it anymore.

The physical scars are healing, they were only nicks to the skin. The mental ones....I'm not sure they will ever heal or fade like those on my skin. I just...

I feel like I should just...disappear- Just fade away.  I couldn't even protect myself...and I abandoned the person who did come to help...I hope he's all right...

I keep hearing his voice in my head, too. I can't sleep and he makes my dreams into nightmares whenever I do manage some sleep. I can't get it out of my mind...

Stop...

STOP....

JUST FADE AWAY.

((OOC: For those who did not see the log with Muraki, Hitomi is very much broken right now. I am amazed the muse managed this much coherency. He was kidnapped, tied up, held at scalpel point, and molested- she's not going to be fixed anytime soon.))

They are becoming more frequent now. At least they aren't all as terrifying as the first few. Some are more like dreams anyway.

I just wish I didn't see the two that brought on this wave of them, I'm still a bit shaken. I don't know if a should or could talk to anyone about them. My readings aren't giving me clear answers to this either...that's never happened before. I've been keeping an eye on the news and alerts across campus, but none of the events have come to pass yet...

What do I do...?

((ooc: This journal was meant to be private, but she forgot to change the setting. Feel free to mess with her by responding~ She'll wonder why people are replying to a supposedly private entry.))

Hitomi was sitting in the main  campus green, underneath a rather large tree. She had several cards laid before her and seemed to be studying them rather intently. She pulled another card from the deck she held in her hands, her expression only growing more serious.

She had been having vague visions lately, and these cards seemed to be negative as well. She sighed and reshuffled the deck. One more try at a reading couldn't hurt. The worst it could do would be to give the same results once more.

I'm finally getting used to everything around here. It's nice to have things going so well!

I met a really nice boy the other day too. I was lost on campus, and he was nice enough to lead me back to the other side of campus. I think, I hope, Lelouch and I can become good friends. It...it's nice to know someone. It...it makes me miss everyone from home and from Gaea less.

I have a feeling that things are going to get busier and crazier around here...Just a...hunch if you will. Like that weird snow storm out of no where.

Hitomi sighed dramatically as she looked about her surrounds for what seemed like the hundredth time. This was ridiculous! She just wanted to find some of her classes for the next quarter, and had some how ended up on the complete opposite side of campus with no clue how she had even gotten there.

"Now how am I supposed to get back?" She sighed to herself. She had never wandered around campus much, so she didn't know her way around too well- and she had forgotten her pendant in her room so she couldn't even try to get a reading on which direction to go.

"I'll...just try and find my way back. I could always ask someone I run into." Hitomi said to herself, trying to look at the situation optimistically.

I feel sleepy, just sleepy all the time. I felt this way the first time I went to Gaea, so maybe it's the effect of being in a new place. I should be working on several assignments right now, but I really don't feel like it. Work of any kind never was my strength anyway, I'm more of an activities oriented person.

I haven't kept a journal of any kind in so long, I'm not exactly sure what to write...Life has been pretty boring so far, even with the multitude of interesting people on this campus. Maybe I should make more friends? Not that I see a point if I could just end u in a different world again next week...or month...or whenever. I'll just see how things go. If I make friends I make them, if not...well things will just remain boring for awhile.

I think I'm going to go look over these assignments...even if I don't end up actually working on them. At least I'll feel like a did something with them.